More surgery to come…

Dear Family & Friends,

I know you have been wondering how last week turned out with our meeting with the liver surgeon.

Sorry it’s taken me a few days to post the update, here goes:

Last week chemo #6 hit me with more nausea & just really tired, sleeping more than normal, but today I am feeling much better, going to take CJ for a nice walk and do some housework and get my income tax figured out, exciting eh?

The walk is the “want to do”, the other crap is the “have to do”. 

Well, Rick & I met with Dr. Quan in London (liver surgeon) on Thursday.  He is a younger surgeon, I would guess to be about my age, very approachable and he did not rush us through the appointment.  He as well as his assistant (Ben Affleck look-a-like “yummy”) took the time to answer all of our questions and were quite thorough and explained things in non-doctor language which I liked.   I was able to view the CT scans of my liver with Dr. Quan and I left the appointment feeling confident that he can do the job.  Phew!  Now I can breath much easier.

Looks like I will be undergoing another major surgery in approx 8 weeks time. He will be removing the entire right lobe of my liver which consists of approx 60% of it’s size, 3 tumours are located in this area so he feels it’s best just to remove all of the lobe rather than just try to remove each tumour separately. It is good news as he could have said there is no hope. The 4th spot/potential tumour is on the left lobe but it’s near main vessels & arteries & may be too risky to remove, he won’t know until he has me opened up as to how he can proceed and still leave me with enough liver to survive with.  Let’s hope he can get at it too.   Surgery is still not a cure, but it buys me more time by cutting the visual cancer out.   There could be microscopic cancer cells throughout still that could appear and grow at any time, but I am not going to fixate on that kind of thinking… one step at at time for now.

I will have to stop chemo for the 8 weeks prior to surgery to bring this body back to “health” to handle the surgery. I am looking forward to that actually so I can feel more like my old self again for a while.  Chemo will begin again about 8-9 weeks after surgery once incision heals. (for another 3 months, 6 additional treatments, than it’s wait & see I guess)

I am lucky that the liver can regenerate it’s tissue, it’s just going to be a tough recovery I am told.  The surgery will be done in London at University Hospital.  I hate being dependent on others and like to keep moving… you know me. At least I can recover outside in the yard this summer instead of being cooped up inside in the middle of winter.  Sunshine does the body good.

Thank you all for being patient waiting for this news, sometimes it takes me a bit to wrap my head around stuff so that I can explain better to all of you.  I still admit that most days I am in denial that all of this is really happening to me and that I am going to wake up from this horrible dream. 

I absolutely hate how cancer works.  It’s not fair that it’s not just about me, why does it have to affect all of you too? If I could wish one thing it would be to spare all of you of having to deal with this too.

I have to thank you all for your love, support, friendship, prayers, etc.    It’s truly what keeps me motivated to stay strong!

Well, C.J. is staring at me since I mentioned the “W” word an hour ago, time to get outside! 

Hugs, Karrie