Surgery #2 is fast approaching so I have been busy trying to fit in my “to do’s” before I am forced to take it easy during recovery.Â I can handle the surgery, the staples in my abdomen, the nasty road map of more scars,Â the pain and the medical stuff… what’s hard for me is the anxiety part… Â trying not to think “am I going to wake up to more bad news?”Â I have dealt with a terminal diagnosis, but my timeline has been … let’s say…. negotiable. (that’s the way I am looking at it)Â The doctors told me I have 2 years left of livingÂ after discovering the cancer on Dec 14, 2009….. crap… I have used up a big part of that 2 year period already…. the past 6 months have passed so quickly.
I keep saying to myself…. as long as I wake up from surgery… I can handle the rest.Â Let’s hope I can walk the talk.
Life was sure in the fast lane yesterday (and I love it)…Â my home nurse was due to visit me at 10 am.
So before 10:00 am hit, I had vacuumed the pool, did a load of laundry, cleaned up the kitchen, cleaned up the bathroom, showered, fed breakfast to myself and to C.J., swept the pool deck and cut the grass.Â Â When my nurse Vanessa arrived for my weekly check up, my blood pressure was normal.Â Now that’s the Karrie I know.Â No time for cancer, and no time to be a “patient” just yet.Â Vanessa left at 10 am., and my neighbour Sher met usÂ at the front door.Â It was time for Sher to take me for a walk.Â Exercise is good and I love the fresh air.Â Rick calls my friends “babysitters”… I think it’s funny.Â I am very strong right now since chemo break started on April 15.Â Â Sher gave me a ride to the office so I could share lunch with Cindy & Andrea (it was Andrea’s last day of work for start of summer break), Rick met us at the restaurant too.Â Sher treated me to my first porche ride !Â Â A beautiful little black convertible masterpiece.Â Thank you Sher !Â For a few moments on the short ride, I kind of felt like Thelma & Louise. Needless to say that Cindy & Andrea were surprised to see usÂ pull up in the sporty car.Â I arrived back home after lunch out and spent the rest of the afternoon in theÂ pool with another “babysitter”, Wendy, a dear friend.Â On Wendy’s way home, I asked her to take me to emerg. because my family doc was on fasttrack duty…earlier in the morning I woke up to strange spots/blisters on my face so I went to seek treatment, turns out it’s just a random infection I attracted as my immune system is low (this kind of thing was not in any of the fine print that I received in chemo training, ughh), oh well, I got the medical crap out of the way during this busy day of mine and then I headed off to a late dinner with Rick… got home at 9 pm, it was raining by then, had to put my lawn mower away and bring in my gardening play shoes and realized I needed to head back out again to get my prescription filled.Â Bed time soon approached and another day in the fast lane was complete.Â I imagine the next couple of weeks will be much like yesterday.Â I like it, like being busy, the time will come soon enough when I have to deal with cancer again when surgery day arrives, and after my incision heals it’s back on the chemo train for another 3 months minimum.Â I am hoping we can do chemo longer so I can zap the crap out the cancerous cells looming in my body.Â I want to prove who is boss in this “relationship”, sorry… no equal partners here… you are not invited… you meaning cancer.