It’s been a while since we last “connected”…. chatted, just isn’t the right word choice, I prefer connected.
You have been the farthest thing from my mind until today.Â You areÂ a coward.Â I hate you.Â You are miserable, you are hurting me and everyone I love and I have no room for your hatred & destructionÂ in my life.Â I am even more prepared this morning, full attack mode, to prove to you once again that you shouldn’t have messed with us.Â Dr. Quan and his team are coming.Â I know, you thought I gave in because I quit chemo for a few weeks.Â I have felt your little happy dances from time to time, you foolishly thinking you are winning….. SURPRISE !!!!Â Â It’s not happening.Â I will never give in to you.Â This is “relay for life”, not “relay for cancer”.Â Get the point yet?Â Even if I wake up to more bad news this afternoon, I’m not done with you yet.Â I hope you hurt as much as we do.Â There is a fine line between love and hate.Â I hate you for the obvious reasons.Â I will never love you, but what I do love is the fact that you have made me embrace myself, unleashed a beast in my head that gives me the drive and determination to fight for myself and everyone in my life, and especially my “other” earth angels, strangers that I continue to meet on a daily basis that come to me to keep me on this path to destroy you.Â I will always look for them.Â Â Â
ps.Â They hate you too.