Tough, but true

Happy Thanksgiving to all of my family and friends!  I started a rough draft of a post that reflected all of the things that I am thankful for this year.  I have to tell you that the list became quite long in a few short minutes, you know, of the usual stuff.  The stuff that makes sense, like I am thankful for great surgeons, thankful for life-extending drugs, etc, etc.  I looked over the list and decided rather than boring any readers of my blog with all the medical details, and the stuff that one would expect to read, like I’m thankful for family and friends, etc.  (these things are obvious),  it is much easier to sum up my gratuity in 3 words instead…. “I am alive”.

I have also been digesting a lot of other thoughts that may seem odd to some, and to be honest they are extremely difficult to admit as I do not want to give credit to cancer for anything or to glamourize it….. however, cancer has made me become thankful for other things, like making me a better person.  It has made my relationships with people to become more deeper and  more meaningful because I can openly discuss anything.  I am always in the present.  I am paying attention to details, I say yes more and try not to put things off for another day, and I am taking charge of my health, even if it may be a little too late, but I’m in fight mode regardless.  I am thankful for having a fire lit under my ass to take action in all aspects of my life and to make the changes that I need to in order to ensure “my time” is well spent.   

I am even thankful that the guy at the post office (I only know his first name), cares enough to reach across the counter to give me a hug and wish me well. 

Happy Thanksgiving to all !   Much love and hugs.    xoDSC00025