Well the day is here… I made it ! Today is my Happy Re-Birthday or Canniversary !
(except I won’t insert the word happy in front of Canniversary, for obvious reasons)
Today especially I am reflecting on all that has happpened since Dec 14, 2009.
Wow, what a roller coaster of a year. I think I have really learned who I am, I don’t need to search for her anymore. I know my purpose in life. How many people can say that? I am strong, I am weak, I am a fighter, I am a loser, I am confident, I am shy, I am funny, I am sad, I am healthy, I am sick, I am a procrastinator, I live life in fast forward. This could go on a very long time. I guess what I should just say is that
I AM A SURVIVOR !!! (all those other descriptive words are just part of the package)
I started the morning off with waking up and leaving the house before the sun came up. I had to go to the lab for routine bloodwork and if you don’t go early, you can wait a long time. Joking intended, my time is precious, so I spend it wisely! I hate wasting time in waiting rooms. If I ever get the chance to build a house from scratch, trust me, there will not be a design for a “waiting” room. I don’t wait for life to happen anymore… I just take each day and make the most of it. So anyway, back to the lab.
I walked in the lab and as usual, I took a number and waited for my number to be called so that I could present my health card & frequent flyer card (joke) to the technician at the counter. I had a little thumbs up moment inside my head because I was number 1. There were already some people in front of me yet it just happened that my number was up when I entered the room. Number one! Today is year number one for survivorship!!! Kind of ironic, but strange things like this happen to me all of the time. I see it as a sign that I am on the right track or on the right road. Who knows where the road leads to, but I am where I am supposed to be I guess.
Rick & I went out for lunch together today, just the two of us. Even though it’s a crazy busy time of year with work, so what, we made the time. I celebrated by eating a big old juicy hamburger. I haven’t had a hamburger for a year. What a treat, but now I don’t feel that great, so I will have no problem waiting another whole year to treat myself again to one. I just thought it would be nice to let the pre-cancer version of myself have a treat.
This week is full of “have to’s”, but next week will be a little quieter. So next week I plan on celebrating my survivorship. I am taking a day to myself, to shut myself off from the world and I will be hiding in a day spa. I am going to do some nice treatments to this body that houses my soul and give it a break. It deserves it. No needles, no scalpels, no stitches, no staples, no poison, no drugs, no bandages, no nothing. I can’t wait !!!
Thank you to everyone I know and love for your tremendous outpour of love and support. I love you all ! I may never leave cancer-land, but I am so grateful that I have you all for tour guides to depend on when I get lost or side-tracked. Keep smiling, because I am!