I know I am in search of direction. Maybe I cannot see beyond the fork in the road because I haven ‘t truly allowed myself to break free from the restraint of the unknown and just how long I will rejoice in this medical state called remission. Why is it so easy for me to help others and yet so difficult to free myself of doubt? How can I be so positively focused and sitting idle at the same time? I have to find the right tool to break free from this rope. Scissors anyone?